misleading

Let's see... blogger says my last post was about a month and a half ago. Yes, that is far too long but maybe I wasn't quite qualified to post anything during that time. I don't think there is an actual qualification out there for posting blogs, but I don't think that I could have posted anything worth reading or that would have benefitted anyone but maybe myself. 

So, now I am going to attempt to post something slightly meaningful or entertaining, possibly both.

I think I have figured out a very accurate way for seeing how well I am growing in God and what is actually changing in me and in my walk with Him. You see, a lot of the time we can convince ourselves that we have really done a lot in the last week concerning prayer or worship or the bible or whatever it may be that we are striving for. I find, however, that we can quite often mislead ourselves into thinking that it was a very productive week while in reality we did very little except please our pride. I know that there are, of course, those times where we actually did grow tremendously or we had some type of profound revelation or something of that sort, but I find that, more often than not, we are still very close to the place where we started.

Why is this? Is it because God is a lier and he does not bring us from glory to glory? That is hardly the case because I know, for a fact, that He is true in all of His words and what He says He will do. What I think happens is that we start to get it. We start to get into a groove and start to grow but then somehow we find a very subtle way to preoccupy ourselves. A lot of the times it will even be something that isn't directly bad but isn't what God is calling us to do at that moment to help us get where He is calling us to go. This seems to happen all the time but how often do I catch myself doing it? It could be months wasted before I realize the time I have essentially wasted. 

I need to be consistently checking myself to make sure this doesn't happen. I find that if we ask ourselves on a regular bases,"What am I experiencing in God, now? What is different in me now than before? What is He trying to do in me? Where is he calling me? What is new?" If we can ask ourselves these questions and honestly give ourselves answers than I think we will see rapid growth and expansion in our knowledge and desire to know Him. 

"And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent."